Day 10----Discuss your first love and your first kiss..............

Hmmm....First REAL kiss? I was a freshman in high school (I know, I was old!) and I was in Spanish Class. Chris T. sat in front of me in class and I was SO nervous!

I went outside and met him and I experienced my first real kiss............and I looooved kissing ever since.


My first love.............Jeffrey E. Young. Spent Sophmore-Senior year with him as well as quite a bit of time in my 20's...on and off, on and off as he always had an eye for someone else. He was my best friend. He taught me how to drive stick shift and we could talk for hours about everything and we would go on long drives and picnics in the park and kite flying and we would watch movies and go on walks and the list could go on and on.

Until one day when he broke my heart and fell in love with a girl from Tucson and they had a little girl. And I was devastated.

And we talk now, ever so often.......we are still friends. And I will always love him and have such fond memories of our time together... But as much as I've tried....literally over the past 21 years, I still don't have trust that he won't break my heart.

Day 9---A letter to my parents.............

Dear Mom & Dad~


How can I thank you for raising me to be who I am today.

A girl who wishes on stars and learned this from my mom who drove us to the end of the rainbow to look for the pots of gold.

I'm the woman who speaks up for others and for herself and isn't afraid to do so.

I was raised to be a productive member of society, of my community and of my country.

I was taught to love my sisters, protect them from bullies like the Freddie's of the world and to rally together because we are a force to be reckoned with!

I was surrounded by love~~~I have the fondest memories of playing in my playhouse in the backyard. Of hearing songs of Broadway on early Sunday mornings. Of Playing Miss America along with the pageant, in my mama's slips.

I always knew I was loved. Even when I wasn't speaking to one of you.........It was before Christmas and it was the year that you guys decided to buy the first artificial tree.

And I was devastated............I don't deal with change well.

And I came home from being out, and as I passed Brittney's room, I smelled it........

Fresh Christmas tree.

And in my room, on my tall dresser, my amazing parents had gone to the Christmas Tree Lot. And gathered branches that had fallen off of trees. Put them in a vase and decorated my little tree.

And I feel swelled with joy and love.

Because that was for me. My mom and dad did that for me.

So thank you for teaching me how to make memories. How to sing at the top of my lungs in the car. And dance in the grocery store aisles. And say bad words. And rub our feet together.

And Love.

Thank you most of all for that.

And for giving me three amazing women to call my sisters.

I love you,

~me

Day 4----my thoughts on Religion.........

I really wish this challenge was more fun. Seems very dry. But I'm committed!!!

Well, I grew up in a very Catholic home........went to church every Sunday and loved it. Celebrated all of my sacraments (baptism, communion,reconciliation, marriage)

I taught CCD (sunday school) beginning at the age of 17.

I loved the church.

And then, I got divorced.

And that was it for me.........for me to be in good standing in the Catholic church, I have to have an annulment.

Well i'm not doing that. So I am not in "good standing"

My sister is a Religion expert...........has a masters degree in it........she's taught me so much about religions and it's very interesting. Just not for me.

30 day challenge....

Day 1----Your Current relationship status. If single, discuss how single life is.

Oh goodness!

Yes, my relationship status is currently single. I have not done a very good job taking care of ME over the past many years because I'm too busy taking care of other people therefore there's never time for anyone else.

So being single is not fun............you have to deal with LAME people who don't get what I do for a living ("What? You're working late again!?!?!) and that my family comes first ("What? You're talking to your sisters AGAIN!?!?")

So Single Sucks.

~me