Tuesday, September 13, 2011

that weight of sadness

that sits upon your chest............that feeling of failure.

that's what i feel now.

when your head gets it and says come on mindy! There's nothing more you could do.

but your heart. your heart sees it differently.

makes me feel defeated. depressed. distant.

and all I can do is think.

about how things will be different.

how perhaps I didn't do enough.

how my heart and my head are never on the same page.

i need to learn to give myself permission to be sad.

and permission to help the ones that WANT to be helped.

you can't force someone to be helped.

i pray tomorrow is a good day.